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I told Alexis with gas prices so high,we can't afford food too,so we''l have to eat the children when times get rough.She looked terrified,and said "you would eat your own daughter?""If I quit eating,there wont be enough meat on me"I told her no,not really.But I'd poke holes in her to syphon some blood. hahaha. So now she wants me to start WALKING her to school!!!! To save on gas.Who does she think I am???
Tonight I went to open house at school.Me,Ashton,Avery and Alexis.Bad idea!!!!!
Ashton was so totally uncontrolable.He was being loud and running all over the place.The teacher (who was talking at the front of the room)stopped at one point and stared at me.Along with all the other parents.I had to grab him and leave the room.I was sooooooooooooo embarrassed!! The looks on their faces made me feel like a total scum bag parent.WHICH IM NOT!!!!!!! So after only 5 minutes at the meeting,we left.I really needed to talk to her,in hopes of getting Alexis back on track this year.This sux.I cant do anything with alllllll these babies.My life will never have order to it again.I'm never gonna be one of those cute soccer moms,who always seam to have a sweet disposition,and are always in control.Calmly.When I leave the house we all look like shit and I look like I fell out of a trailor.Greasy hair and a BAD bleach job!My kids run-a-muk!If thats a real word.If I do manage to gain control,it is only because my yelling and threatening has put the fear of god in them.But it doesn't last.On that note I have decided I will not be having anymore kids.I'm done.I'm gonna tell mike to go ahaed and get snipped.That makes me sad.Mike and I have seperate rooms now.That is a whole nother issue I don't want to go into.It makes me sad too.I have to go bf the baby now.It's been all of what,20 minutes now???